Trust

I never thought I was much of a control freak until recently. I'm so wrapped up in what I want my life circumstances to be or what I think my future will look like that I'm forgetting to live today. I obviously can't forget to do daily tasks as I raise my daughter, but my mind is in a far away place. My few moments to myself are filled with building to do lists and writing plans and thinking about all the what-if scenarios. I guess there is always something that is next. And as I look at many different 'next' possibilities for our family, I want control. I seek control. But I've been looking in all the wrong places. Instead of growing closer to the one who controls everything, I find that I lean away in search for a way that I can control the spinning globe. Thankfully I have great support systems through family and friends. Reminders of trusting in the Lord help. They help but often don't dim my need to be planning. Thankfully I seek a God that loves me beyond my many faults. And thankfully I seek a God that has a better plan for my life than I could ever imagine or dream.

Are you struggling with control today? Or should I say struggling to trust God with your next?

Proverbs 4:4 

He also taught me, and said to me: "Let Your heart retain my words; keep my commands, and live."